BATTLE WITHIN.

  I was reading the Bible one evening and I came across this passage in Romans 7:14-20, and it says " we know that the law is spiritual but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what i do, for what I want to do, I do not do, but what i hate i do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I know that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer i myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For i know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For i have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For i do not do the good i want to do, but the evil i do not want to do - this i keep on doing. Now if i do what i do not want to do, it is no longer i who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it".
  Now let's forget the grammatical expressions and the religious aspect of it, what interested me, was the fact that as humans, mere mortals of this earth, we are not originally designed to do good. Not because we can't, but it is easier to do the opposite of what is right. Sometimes we find ourselves in conflict concerning right decisions to make. We know that when we are hurt by people, forgiveness and letting go is the ideal religious thing to do but that sometimes is like hardest thing to do.
  Giving, self control, sincere love, forgiveness are some of the hard morsels to swallow completely as humans and sometimes we really shouldn't beat ourselves up over them when it doesn't come naturally or when it's a constant battle. The only thing we can do is to continue to make efforts to do the right that we are meant to do and be the humans we meant to be, and that is to make mistakes sometimes.

Bebaibee